Pray For My Cousin!

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A couple months ago my cousin Joe Micco was in a deadly motorcycle accident. He suffered severe brain trauma and was in a coma for a few weeks. Doctors thought my cousin wouldn't make it but he has made such tremendous progress after suffering such extreme injuries. WARNING: The video in this post is very sad but also encouraging due to the fact that doctors didn't even think my cousin would live but he's come this far so although it'll take a long time, Joe will definitely pull through! (The picture in this post is Joe and his wife Alyson before the accident) PRAY FOR JOE! Every prayer helps!

Why Did I Stop Posting on Here???

    So as I'm sitting here during the late hours of an average Tuesday night, for some reason I decided to come back to this blog I started a little while back to read some of the things I wrote. As I'm reading my posts, I kept thinking to myself, "Why did I stop posting on here?". I used to love sitting down and taking the time to write these thoughtful posts and a bunch of people were really enjoying them so I kept writing! Then I did a double-take and thought, "Wow did I really stop writing on here because of the one or two people that put me down or made fun of me for this?". I even wrote on this page that I wouldn't care what people thought or said about this blog and that I would keep posting regardless of how others felt about it. And I kind of got angry with myself for not sticking to what I said because why should one or two people ruin a good thing? SCREW THE HATERS! I pledge to TRULY not care what anyone thinks about this blog and I'm going to start posting on here again because like I said in the little blurb down on the side of this page "this is for me" so I'm going to continue with this whether some people have misguided interpretations or condescending opinions or neither of those things!

KONY 2012

How a HS Girl's Mind Works (In my Opinion)

    Hey peeps! Sorry for not posting since last Thursday, I've been very busy. Anyways, I just want to point out that the rant below is only my opinion, it can and might be completely wrong, but it's basically how I see things from my POV.


    Something that all guys in high school wonder is..WHAT THE HECK IS UP WITH GIRLS THESE DAYS?! When we think they're going to do this, they go and do that. When we think they're going to say this, they say that instead! Girls are so confusing, unpredictable, and hard to figure out. Fortunately for any of you guys reading this, I've managed to put together a theory on how a high school girl's mind works!

    The mind of a high school girl is a pretty screwed up place if you ask me :P They have so many things going through their minds and their lives are made so much more complicated by their stupid unnecessary drama. If you're a nice guy reading this, tough luck kid, girls these days claim they want you, but they won't pursue you. If you so happen to be a cocky d-bag reading this, CONGRATULATIONS! All the girls want you and will do anything to be with you. Now whoa whoa whoa WAIT A SEC! Didn't I just say all girls want to be with a nice guy? Why do they go for the cocky d-bags that treat them and everyone else badly then? There's one word that can answer all of this. DESIRABILITY.

    A girl does desire to be with a nice guy someday, but for right now, her desires are very blinded by many things. She won't go for that nice guy (unless she's smart) right now because he's not DESIRABLE to her. The nice guy is the kind of guy that the girl knows will always be there for her, listen to her, and love her. In short, this guy is very attainable for the girl. However, the girl, for some reason, needs a feeling of fulfillment or a feeling like she conquered something. As a result, she and many other girls will chase a cocky d-bag because that's who is UNATTAINABLE thus making him DESIRABLE.

    For me and most guys, we do not see the sense in this at all. Why do you girls need to feel accomplished? If you "loved" this guy for all the right reasons, you would not be looking to get a feeling of "accomplishment" out of it! If that's the case, I believe you need to grow up and stop being immature. I'm sorry, but I don't think girls realize how stupid they look when they all chase the same guy that has nothing special about him and who's not a great guy at all. In fact, this stupidity is a MAJOR turn-off to all the nice guys out there and all that you girls are doing is screwing up your chances to EVER be with a nice guy. SMARTEN UP! Take a step back and realize that chasing the d-bag and trying to win him over is not worth it. Chances are you have a really nice guy that's been right in front of you and has been there for you this whole time that you can be happy with right now.

Being Alone: The Pros and Cons (Mostly Pros :P)

    Being Alone. There are many perspectives on what being alone truly means. It all really depends on your situation in life. Some people may literally be alone where they don't have any friends or family, some people are alone because they haven't found their lover yet, or some people may feel alone when they have no one to talk to. All of these instances make being alone not the greatest thing (as it is for me), but being alone isn't all that bad in some cases (as it is for me also).

    The obvious part about being alone is of course the negative side to it. Being alone SUCKS most of the time. You may feel like there's no hope in your life, you won't ever find that special someone, or some other reason. Ok, I won't go too deep into the negatives because I think they're all pretty obvious. What I really want to focus on in this short rant is the POSITIVES of being alone.

    Yupp, I said it. POSITIVES. Now you're probably thinking, "How are there any positives of being alone?". Well think about it for a second. We all have our days where we are just annoyed with everything and everyone to the point where you just ignore every text and Facebook message that comes your way just to relax. And there you go! That's one thing right there. Relaxation! I know that when I'm alone, I find it much easier to relieve stress and relax. I do this in many different ways such as jamming out on my guitar, listening to music, or just simply sitting there and thinking about random things. Next time you're alone, you should try some of those things or anything you want because they really do help.

    Another positive about being alone is actually the fact that you are so much more productive with your time and are able to accomplish your goals faster and easier. I know that during my time of being alone these days, I've been getting so many things done. I've been getting better at doing my homework, getting a lot of different projects done at work, and I've been able to learn new songs on the guitar. So maybe the next time you're alone, try turning around what seem like a depressing thing into a time of self improvement by doing things that you've always wanted to do for yourself.

Do Dreams Mean Anything?

    Have you ever woke up from a dream and wonder "What the heck kind of dream is that?" or "What did that dream mean?"? These are questions I always ask myself every morning and sometimes all day when I have a very puzzling dream. Why do we dream what we dream? Are our dreams just compilations of random thoughts we had during our day? Do they predict our future or have deeper meanings? What do our dreams mean?
   
    There really is no wrong or right answer to what our dreams mean to us, but I believe that our dreams are a couple different things. One thing that I think can probably apply to everyone is that our dreams are created depending on our desires and may even show you a desire you didn't even think you had. Ever wonder where the expression "In your dreams!" came from? It was made just for that reason. I can give you proof too! My dreams almost every night are about me finally being someone with whom I truly love (a HUGE desire of mine). Now, the girl in my dreams seems to change every now and then, but the idea is still there. With that, that brings me to the other thing that I think dreams are. I believe that dreams also, are in a way, fortunes and show us very vaguely what our future may hold. Now going back to the example of my dream as mentioned before, does being with a specific girl in my dream mean anything? Does it mean that I like her? Does it mean that she's my next girlfriend?

    Honestly, I think that dreams show us our desires more than our future, however, just the thought that they may be in fact predicting my future makes me so curious. What if my dreams are urging me to take certain actions to take me towards the future they show me? Ignoring these possible urges is so confusing and sometimes I feel like I should listen to them and see where they take me. Who knows, maybe it will create more adventure and fun experiences in my life!

The Most Helpless Feeling

    Throughout my schooling years I've witnessed so much change throughout my life. From the place I live, the school I go to, the friends I have, the change in me, and ,the most evident of changes, the changes of other people. All the people that I know, whether closely or not, have all met a fork in the road at some point in their lives. Sadly, I have witnessed way too many good people that have met that fork and took the wrong path down it. The paths of these forks are unfortunately one way roads, and once the choice is made, there is no coming back.
 
    Once these good and innocent people go down these paths, one may think that there could be something they can do to get them back to being the good-hearted people they once were. However, there is nothing you can do. It is the most helpless feeling and it's a feeling that bothers me more and more often these days. I find myself wondering what I can do to help these people that are down that dark path, but all of my ideas are useless. There is nothing that one can do to save a corrupt mind. Once a person's mind works in this way, they see no wrong in what they do and are unconvinced by anyone telling them otherwise.

    I believe it is my job, as a good person with good judgement, to at least attempt to save these people and show them that the life they're living now will only lead them further down the dark path and to worse things later in life so that I can at least say I tried and did everything I could to help them. Who knows? Maybe by just becoming friends with some of these people it will enlighten them and make them want to be good again. Of course, the only way I can see this happening is by not letting them change you and drag you down their path, but you would have to pick them up, change them, and show them where goodness can bring them in life. Unfortunately, I can only hope that this would work. If not, nothing ever will...

The Pretty Girl with the Ugly Personality

    Unfortunately, I've noticed that there are increasing amounts of pretty girls with such ugly personalities these days. There are so many girls that you would never think did drugs, drank, smoked, and were just very mean people just by looking at them. It's really such a shame and it saddens me just by seeing so many of these types of girls in my school right now. I always ask myself "WHY?" and "HOW?". Why do such pretty girls choose to act so terribly and how did they even get like this?

   Everyday when I'm walking through the halls of my school, all I can do is just shake my head in disappointment. I see too many girls that I knew in my past that were such innocent and shy girls that have taken the turn for the worst. When I see pictures of these girls on Facebook of them drinking or doing whatever other bad thing you can think of, I don't see the bad people they portray themselves to be in their eyes. I see the good that they have inside of them or the good person that they once were.

    As a guy, and I'm sure other good guys would agree, this is really such a disappointment to us when we observe these kinds of things everyday. These girls today make it so much harder for us guys to become closer with them because when we're immediately attracted to them by their very pretty looks, we quickly are turned away and are turned off by their ugly and repulsive personalities. I hope that for most of these girls that this is just a high school immaturity phase and that they will snap out of it soon and take their life in a better direction because if not, man, the good guys of this world are seriously dealing with little to no options anymore as the number of these girls in today's world are rising way too quickly.

The Need for a New Start

    When someone leaves the lives of others, their impact on those people and the measurement of their self worth boils down to how many people actually miss them dearly in their absence. A question that I believe has all crossed our minds at some point in our lives is if we ever left the life we live now and move onto somewhere else, how many people would actually miss us? Would they carry out life as usual or would they have a hole in their hearts that was created due to us leaving?

    It's definitely something that has crossed my mind a few times lately because I really don't feel "loved". Of course my family loves me but I'm talking about a different kind of "love". I'm talking about the kind that friends have for each other. I don't really know why I feel this way, but I feel like I'm not as important to my friends as my friends are to me. I feel like if I were to move or not hangout with them as much, sure they would probably miss me for a week or so, but they would just move on as if I had no importance to their lives and left no impact on them. Outta sight, outta mind...

    As scary this idea is to me, I almost want to test this theory out. I just have this need for a new start. By withdrawing myself from the life I live now, I feel that it would also help me greatly with my friend zone problem that I mentioned in my previous rant. I would be able to meet new people, see new faces, and increase my chances of finally finding someone who TRULY loves me because that's something I really need right now. I need someone that wouldn't be able to live without me just like how I can't live without my friends who are so important to me.

The Deadly Friend Zone (Guys' POV)

     Have you ever sat on the bench during any kind of sports game only to watch your team win and enjoy all the glory? Well that's sort of what the friend zone is like. Us victims of the friend zone are the benchwarmers of the world. We are the ones who are never given the benefit of the doubt from the ones we love in our life even though we have always been the ones there for them most. 

    Generally, victims of the friend zone are really nice people and unfortunately are outnumbered by the more fortunate d0uche bags of society. Girls claim they want to be with the "nice guy" yet time and time again they choose the classic d0uche over the nice guy. Why is that? It's a question I ask myself over and over. Friend zone victims are basically boyfriends without the title of being an actual "boyfriend". We listen to the problems of the one we love, we're there to pick them up when they're down, hangout with them all the time, give them advice, talk to them for hours at a time, and overall just make them genuinely HAPPY! Yet all the d0uche has to do is have "good looks", be cocky, and treat girls badly to win over their hearts. Makes no sense...

    Obviously, I've spent some time in the friend zone (and I still am). It is absolutely TERRIBLE. I've begun to lose all hope of ever finding the girl that I love who will truly see me for who and what I am. It makes me so mad seeing guys that constantly play with girls hearts and break girls' hearts getting second and even THIRD chances when I would kill for just HALF a chance to win over the girl I love. Every night when I'm laying in bed I evaluate myself to try to figure out why I'm constantly being friend zoned by every girl I want to become closer with, but I really can't figure out anything wrong that I'm doing to put me in these situations. I pray for the day when the girl I love calls me up from the bench to win the game or rather..her heart. Unfortunately I don't see that happening in the near future for me as I don't know a single girl that would ever give me that opportunity...