The Most Helpless Feeling

    Throughout my schooling years I've witnessed so much change throughout my life. From the place I live, the school I go to, the friends I have, the change in me, and ,the most evident of changes, the changes of other people. All the people that I know, whether closely or not, have all met a fork in the road at some point in their lives. Sadly, I have witnessed way too many good people that have met that fork and took the wrong path down it. The paths of these forks are unfortunately one way roads, and once the choice is made, there is no coming back.
 
    Once these good and innocent people go down these paths, one may think that there could be something they can do to get them back to being the good-hearted people they once were. However, there is nothing you can do. It is the most helpless feeling and it's a feeling that bothers me more and more often these days. I find myself wondering what I can do to help these people that are down that dark path, but all of my ideas are useless. There is nothing that one can do to save a corrupt mind. Once a person's mind works in this way, they see no wrong in what they do and are unconvinced by anyone telling them otherwise.

    I believe it is my job, as a good person with good judgement, to at least attempt to save these people and show them that the life they're living now will only lead them further down the dark path and to worse things later in life so that I can at least say I tried and did everything I could to help them. Who knows? Maybe by just becoming friends with some of these people it will enlighten them and make them want to be good again. Of course, the only way I can see this happening is by not letting them change you and drag you down their path, but you would have to pick them up, change them, and show them where goodness can bring them in life. Unfortunately, I can only hope that this would work. If not, nothing ever will...

The Pretty Girl with the Ugly Personality

    Unfortunately, I've noticed that there are increasing amounts of pretty girls with such ugly personalities these days. There are so many girls that you would never think did drugs, drank, smoked, and were just very mean people just by looking at them. It's really such a shame and it saddens me just by seeing so many of these types of girls in my school right now. I always ask myself "WHY?" and "HOW?". Why do such pretty girls choose to act so terribly and how did they even get like this?

   Everyday when I'm walking through the halls of my school, all I can do is just shake my head in disappointment. I see too many girls that I knew in my past that were such innocent and shy girls that have taken the turn for the worst. When I see pictures of these girls on Facebook of them drinking or doing whatever other bad thing you can think of, I don't see the bad people they portray themselves to be in their eyes. I see the good that they have inside of them or the good person that they once were.

    As a guy, and I'm sure other good guys would agree, this is really such a disappointment to us when we observe these kinds of things everyday. These girls today make it so much harder for us guys to become closer with them because when we're immediately attracted to them by their very pretty looks, we quickly are turned away and are turned off by their ugly and repulsive personalities. I hope that for most of these girls that this is just a high school immaturity phase and that they will snap out of it soon and take their life in a better direction because if not, man, the good guys of this world are seriously dealing with little to no options anymore as the number of these girls in today's world are rising way too quickly.

The Need for a New Start

    When someone leaves the lives of others, their impact on those people and the measurement of their self worth boils down to how many people actually miss them dearly in their absence. A question that I believe has all crossed our minds at some point in our lives is if we ever left the life we live now and move onto somewhere else, how many people would actually miss us? Would they carry out life as usual or would they have a hole in their hearts that was created due to us leaving?

    It's definitely something that has crossed my mind a few times lately because I really don't feel "loved". Of course my family loves me but I'm talking about a different kind of "love". I'm talking about the kind that friends have for each other. I don't really know why I feel this way, but I feel like I'm not as important to my friends as my friends are to me. I feel like if I were to move or not hangout with them as much, sure they would probably miss me for a week or so, but they would just move on as if I had no importance to their lives and left no impact on them. Outta sight, outta mind...

    As scary this idea is to me, I almost want to test this theory out. I just have this need for a new start. By withdrawing myself from the life I live now, I feel that it would also help me greatly with my friend zone problem that I mentioned in my previous rant. I would be able to meet new people, see new faces, and increase my chances of finally finding someone who TRULY loves me because that's something I really need right now. I need someone that wouldn't be able to live without me just like how I can't live without my friends who are so important to me.

The Deadly Friend Zone (Guys' POV)

     Have you ever sat on the bench during any kind of sports game only to watch your team win and enjoy all the glory? Well that's sort of what the friend zone is like. Us victims of the friend zone are the benchwarmers of the world. We are the ones who are never given the benefit of the doubt from the ones we love in our life even though we have always been the ones there for them most. 

    Generally, victims of the friend zone are really nice people and unfortunately are outnumbered by the more fortunate d0uche bags of society. Girls claim they want to be with the "nice guy" yet time and time again they choose the classic d0uche over the nice guy. Why is that? It's a question I ask myself over and over. Friend zone victims are basically boyfriends without the title of being an actual "boyfriend". We listen to the problems of the one we love, we're there to pick them up when they're down, hangout with them all the time, give them advice, talk to them for hours at a time, and overall just make them genuinely HAPPY! Yet all the d0uche has to do is have "good looks", be cocky, and treat girls badly to win over their hearts. Makes no sense...

    Obviously, I've spent some time in the friend zone (and I still am). It is absolutely TERRIBLE. I've begun to lose all hope of ever finding the girl that I love who will truly see me for who and what I am. It makes me so mad seeing guys that constantly play with girls hearts and break girls' hearts getting second and even THIRD chances when I would kill for just HALF a chance to win over the girl I love. Every night when I'm laying in bed I evaluate myself to try to figure out why I'm constantly being friend zoned by every girl I want to become closer with, but I really can't figure out anything wrong that I'm doing to put me in these situations. I pray for the day when the girl I love calls me up from the bench to win the game or rather..her heart. Unfortunately I don't see that happening in the near future for me as I don't know a single girl that would ever give me that opportunity...